How can you tell the seasons are changing?
The weather begins to change in the most soft and subtle ways. From winter to spring the little birds begin to sing a new song, new buds appear on bare branches and the sun beings to thaw out cold bones. From Spring to Summer that sun rises early and stays late, ocean water is refreshing and the smell of bbq and tanning lotion covers the air. From Summer to Fall leaves begin to change to the most gorgeous colors, pumpkins and turkey are on every table and the air is crisp and clean. Fall to Winter the sun sleeps in and goes to bed early, frost covers the ground with a blanket of chill and hot drinks warm cold souls.
The earthly seasons are so easily seen. Thousands of years of this cycle and we can tell the changes are coming just by the name of the month. In my personal life it is not always so easy. We go through seasons of life; some are more noticeable and others creep up on you. Having a baby, changing a job, getting married- these are all very obvious seasons. The season I have been in this last year and a half has been one of the hardest struggles I have faced. It was a time of laying down my desires and dreams in pursuit of something I have never seen. It was a season of questioning everything I was taught in my childhood and working through disappointments, hurt, anger, bitterness...the list goes on. Probably the scariest part was looking at myself- the real self- and seeing just how wicked my heart can be.
It has been a season of immense grace. Father God is so gentle; every time he would cut deep I was washed in waves of love. Every time a new layer of my heart was revealed, I was also shown hope. When my tears seemed to be my food I was filled with joy and laughter. He sustained me, like He always has and always will- no matter what the season is.
By no means am I done. But I feel the sun getting brighter, the flowers are starting to bloom and new smells are filling the air. I believe a new season is on its way.
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